Lisa came out of the treasure chest this morning, with the wonderful message: “I am enough!” and a plea for self-love.
Today was not an easy sunday. A lot happened during painting. A few days ago, I had written as an answer to a Facebook comment “I am “just” holding the brushes” … and a friend replied to my comment: ” … I don’t see a “just” here”. This came to my mind today. Bang! Yes, my friend is right, there is so much more than “just” holding the brushes – and as long as I am making myself smaller, choosing the words like I did, we are all doing this. So I recorded a long message to myself today, first describing the whole situation, trying to put it to words, apologizing and promising myself to really take better care and appreciate more what I am doing. It really felt good, to speak out these words loud.
The painting itself started with a free-handed charcoal circle on the white paper, it went round and round and round.
The whole process described above happened during painting. yes, It got quite messy, but then I coud take off some paint again, layer by layer, and allowed the colours to move in more consciously. What a difference!
What are the colours I want to surround myself? What is the texture, the quality? Do I see myself with the same eyes than I see others? Am I celebrating myself enough? … so many questions came – and again and again Lisa’s clear plea for self-love was in my ear!
Thank you, Lisa!
<3 Susanne